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Is it wrong to want to speed up time? I might have said it before but the waiting is excruciating. What am I waiting for? I don’t know. It started at the hospital. I thought I was waiting for people to come, then to my house. Then I thought I was waiting for the arrangement details to [...] I was sitting reading the Bible today. I got up to get some oatmeal, and I felt God say “go sit back down.” Perplexed, I went. And kept reading. I moved to C.S. Lewis’ Mere Christianity, and saw the passage – although our feelings come and go, God’s love for us [...] “I think this says a lot about why I struggle,” Anita wrote to me in an email from Sunday, December 21, 2008 11:18 AM. This came from her favorite blog, Seth Godin’s. Anita was a very intuitive person, and goal oriented. That helped drive her in her early 20s, but later she was searching for something. [...] Sometimes it’s like climbing Mount Everest. I’ve never done this, but this is how I imagine it … some days, the very enormity and awesomeness of the quest – coupled with the fact that you’ve been allowed to progress this far – is enough to carry you through the day. Other times, it’s the [...] Today, I got mad. Why? WHY WHY WHY? Why Peter? My mindful self knows that Anita did great things on this earth. She touched many people. She did God’s work and burned her candle at both ends for the short time she was here. I know that she did her work, but then she was done [...] After I picked up the “necessaries,” I walked down the grocery store potato chip aisle. I asked God whether or not I could buy some puffed Cheetos – I’d been craving them for several days now. You might be thinking, why does she need to ask God whether she can buy Cheetos? [...] Greg and I have spent the morning watching a female deer take refuge, be killed, and be taken away from our backyard. It was the second day she was here, actually. She came yesterday. She was so still – she didn’t move even when Greg made noise and tried to startle her. [...] I found these two Anita wall posters in a box – they had been on our wall for a while (around 2007, I am guessing), then taken down, set on the table for about a year and finally I put them in a box “to be sorted”. Grace is unearned love – the love that goes [...] This is on the wall of the bedroom (old office), hung there in 2007. Anita was fond of focusing on discovering principles that could be used to guide decisions both in personal and business matters. This is her list for her business. You can see, they are not really goal oriented (like “get 10 new [...] How would I react, I wonder, if You pointed to a basin of water and asked me to wash the calloused feet of a bent and wrinkled old woman, day after day, month after month, in a room where nobody saw and nobody knew? This was typed on a paper, stuck on the wall directly in [...] |
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