I was having a hard time last week, at least until Wednesday. Feeling bad for myself, lonely, like my life was out of control and that I just couldn’t do anything right. About mid-day on Wednesday, I started going through Anita’s “GOD” file and reading about her struggles that she gave up to God. The page below helped me especially that day because I was having so many of the feelings that Anita addressed. Thank the Lord!
Requirement of Peace w/ Myself
1) Receive Christ as my personal savior. Can not have peace when I do not know where I’m going to spend eternity
2) Believe God is sovereign – protects us from continuing fear of safety – God is in absolute control of my life – no reason for fear
3) God is going to meet every need I have – concern vs fear – cannot doubt God
4) maintain a clear conscience – no guilt
5) accept myself the way God made me – my actions will follow my imagination
6) Sense of purpose in life – God has something for me to do
7) Have a sense of competence – God would never call me to do something and not aid me to do it
Sense of belonging – protects from feelings of rejection
9) I must be Christ-centered and not self-centered
God is the giver of all Peace.
There is no date on the paper but it looks from the folder like she wrote this in mid-2009 (somewhere between March and August). I suspect that these might be notes from a book she read but I can’t be sure.
