In late February of this year - after Penelope’s birthday – Anita suspected she was pregnant again. She had a great intuition in general and had never been wrong about being pregnant. Nonetheless, she sent me to the store to get a pregnancy test. She took it but could not stay in the bathroom to wait for [...]
Beyond The Gate
On earth we don’t understand
Why babies have to die
Their little lives are taken
And our painful cry is “Why?”
As we endure the pains of life
No other pain compares
A parent weeping for a child
Just briefly it was theirs
For reasons we don’t understand
Their little lives are taken
And we cry out to God above
“Why must I be [...]
Why?
Why is it so hard to find good friends?
And when you do find them why is it so hard to keep them?
Aren’t we all looking for the same thing?
Someone you can tell anything to, and know its safe with them.
Someone who understands who you are, and won’t try and change you.
Someone who loves you even [...]
Another journal that Anita kept was one about things the kids did. She only wrote about 10 entires each over the course of two years, but they are really meaningful entires and I think the kids will treasure them forever. Here is one of the entires from Ben’s journal.
7/10/06 11:06 pm
I came home late tonight [...]
Today, I got mad. Why? WHY WHY WHY? Why Peter?
My mindful self knows that Anita did great things on this earth. She touched many people. She did God’s work and burned her candle at both ends for the short time she was here. I know that she did her work, but then she was done [...]
This is a fantastic email with an attached essay that Anita wrote in 2006. It was during the time when she was exploring being a writer and it’s picture is beautifully painted by Anita. (She even put a copyright on it – what a lawyer!)
From her friend Caroline:
I was reminded of this email that Anita [...]
I woke up this morning with the song in my head that Julia sang at the funeral. The song was “Mercy Said No” by CeCe Winans.