“Time heals all wounds,” so it is said. But in truth, it takes a lot more than time.
It’s been 2 years and 4 months since Anita died. Christmas 2010 was a horrible time – not the day itself but the entire month of December that year brought stress and pain piled upon itself. But Christmas [...]
Penny turned three earlier this month. Her mother died when she was one and a half. It’s made me think a lot about time and lifetimes.
Christmas 2004
December is the most stressful month of the year for me. It’s been this way since the older kids started school full time, maybe even a bit before that. My list of things to do is not unlike many people: putting up decorations, planning and attending school parties, baking and candy making, shopping for [...]
In the first couple of months after Anita died, I had dreams where she would make an appearance. At the time, I spent my days in sorrowful numbness, so the dreams were my chance to see her again. I typically awoke with a smile and a feeling – almost like relief – that I could [...]
I keep trying to fool myself that as time goes on it will be easier to talk to people about Anita’s death. In most cases, it is not a problem, at least when the people already know she is gone. But in the last two days I have thrice run into situations where people did not know. [...]
Note: this post is disturbing, so you may not want to read it. It is also a spoiler for the movie “Inception”.
I picked the wrong movie to see tonight. From the previews, I thought “Inception” was something like Matrix. From the two short reviews I read, I thought it might be the movie of the decade. [...]
I feel like today is a lost day. That term just came into my mind. “Lost Day” It’s how I describe a day where nothing is really planned, and I don’t really end up doing anything.
Let me rephrase. Although I enjoy relaxing days and nothing days, I do not enjoy days where I feel there are [...]
Tomorrow is 11 months since Anita died, so the one year mark is a short time away. I have been on vacation and haven’t been focused on August or even given it any thought.
But in the last few days a number of people have asked me questions along the lines of “what are you going [...]
I didn’t got so far as to tell my kids that yesterday was the worst of my eight Father’s Days, but it was. I honestly can’t think of previously bad Father’s Day, not even the one five years ago when we spent the day driving from Chicago to Atlanta in a U-Haul truck and Anita [...]
In today’s devotional of My Utmost for His Highestby Oswald Chambers, he uses the phrase “spiritually distracted”. I think that accurately describes how I often feel.
It’s not hard to be distracted spiritually. This world is full of things to take one’s mind off of God. On Saturday, I got cable. We had shut it off [...]