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Ghost of Christmas Present

Greg — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 20:40:48 +0000

“Time heals all wounds,” so it is said. But in truth, it takes a lot more than time.

It’s been 2 years and 4 months since Anita died. Christmas 2010 was a horrible time – not the day itself but the entire month of December that year brought stress and pain piled upon itself. But Christmas [...]

Half a lifetime

Greg — Thu, 17 Feb 2011 02:37:43 +0000

Penny turned three earlier this month. Her mother died when she was one and a half. It's made me think a lot about time and lifetimes.

Ghosts of Christmases Past

Greg — Thu, 16 Dec 2010 18:37:10 +0000

Christmas 2004

December is the most stressful month of the year for me. It’s been this way since the older kids started school full time, maybe even a bit before that. My list of things to do is not unlike many people: putting up decorations, planning and attending school parties, baking and candy making, shopping for [...]

Dreaming

Greg — Wed, 03 Nov 2010 02:01:46 +0000

In the first couple of months after Anita died, I had dreams where she would make an appearance. At the time, I spent my days in sorrowful numbness, so the dreams were my chance to see her again. I typically awoke with a smile and a feeling – almost like relief – that I could [...]

It doesn’t get easier

Greg — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 14:09:16 +0000

I keep trying to fool myself that as time goes on it will be easier to talk to people about Anita’s death. In most cases, it is not a problem, at least when the people already know she is gone. But in the last two days I have thrice run into situations where people did not know. [...]

Shade of Anita

Greg — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 05:00:09 +0000

Note: this post is disturbing, so you may not want to read it. It is also a spoiler for the movie “Inception”.

I picked the wrong movie to see tonight. From the previews, I thought “Inception” was something like Matrix. From the two short reviews I read, I thought it might be the movie of the decade. [...]

Lost Day

Greg — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 21:01:43 +0000

I feel like today is a lost day. That term just came into my mind. “Lost Day” It’s how I describe a day where nothing is really planned, and I don’t really end up doing anything.

Let me rephrase. Although I enjoy relaxing days and nothing days, I do not enjoy days where I feel there are [...]

Impending Anniversary

Greg — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 03:07:06 +0000

Tomorrow is 11 months since Anita died, so the one year mark is a short time away. I have been on vacation and haven’t been focused on August or even given it any thought.

But in the last few days a number of people have asked me questions along the lines of “what are you going [...]

Worst Father’s Day

Greg — Mon, 21 Jun 2010 16:18:51 +0000

I didn’t got so far as to tell my kids that yesterday was the worst of my eight Father’s Days, but it was. I honestly can’t think of previously bad Father’s Day, not even the one five years ago when we spent the day driving from Chicago to Atlanta in a U-Haul truck and Anita [...]

Spiritually Distracted

Greg — Tue, 08 Jun 2010 17:47:06 +0000

In today’s devotional of My Utmost for His Highestby Oswald Chambers, he uses the phrase “spiritually distracted”. I think that accurately describes how I often feel.

It’s not hard to be distracted spiritually. This world is full of things to take one’s mind off of God. On Saturday, I got cable. We had shut it off [...]