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Shade of Anita

Greg — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 05:00:09 +0000

Note: this post is disturbing, so you may not want to read it. It is also a spoiler for the movie “Inception”.

I picked the wrong movie to see tonight. From the previews, I thought “Inception” was something like Matrix. From the two short reviews I read, I thought it might be the movie of the decade. [...]

Lost Day

Greg — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 21:01:43 +0000

I feel like today is a lost day. That term just came into my mind. “Lost Day” It’s how I describe a day where nothing is really planned, and I don’t really end up doing anything.

Let me rephrase. Although I enjoy relaxing days and nothing days, I do not enjoy days where I feel there are [...]

Impending Anniversary

Greg — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 03:07:06 +0000

Tomorrow is 11 months since Anita died, so the one year mark is a short time away. I have been on vacation and haven’t been focused on August or even given it any thought.

But in the last few days a number of people have asked me questions along the lines of “what are you going [...]

Worst Father’s Day

Greg — Mon, 21 Jun 2010 16:18:51 +0000

I didn’t got so far as to tell my kids that yesterday was the worst of my eight Father’s Days, but it was. I honestly can’t think of previously bad Father’s Day, not even the one five years ago when we spent the day driving from Chicago to Atlanta in a U-Haul truck and Anita [...]

Spiritually Distracted

Greg — Tue, 08 Jun 2010 17:47:06 +0000

In today’s devotional of My Utmost for His Highestby Oswald Chambers, he uses the phrase “spiritually distracted”. I think that accurately describes how I often feel.

It’s not hard to be distracted spiritually. This world is full of things to take one’s mind off of God. On Saturday, I got cable. We had shut it off [...]

Birthday Surprises

Greg — Thu, 20 May 2010 03:47:04 +0000

Yesterday was my 39th birthday. I kind of have a thing about birthdays. I think they should always be special and, no matter what you do, a joyous day. I think we mark time by our birthdays more than any other day, just because that means we’ve lived another year and seen another year’s worth [...]

It’s Not About Me

Greg — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 02:18:38 +0000

Okay, it’s been two months since I wrote on this blog. If I had written every time I thought about writing, I would have written 40 times. Instead I was busy, tired, overwhelmed – basically, struggling. Great things happened in the last two months, but they were often overshadowed by bitter, painful feelings. Such is [...]

Six Months

Greg — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 02:54:16 +0000

Anita died six months ago today. Six months. It’s weird to say it. Is it weird to hear it? How could that much time have passed? I can recall that day like it was yesterday (not that I always want to).

I remember sitting at home a few days after she died and thinking to myself [...]

God in it all

Greg — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 03:29:26 +0000

I’ve got to stop thinking “I need to get away from it all”. That’s the thinking that leads me to follow the Devil’s temptations and distract myself from God and His purpose for me.

I need to try to see God in it all.

Brother Lawrence described doing everything for God “with an even, uninterrupted composure and tranquility [...]

Valentine’s Day – the best and the worst

Greg — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 01:16:39 +0000

This is my first Valentine’s Day without Anita since 1993. It is very tempting to be sad, another lonely single person detesting the day of love and romance. I’ll try not to dwell too much on that instead reflecting on Valentine’s Days past.Anita and I agreed early on that this was a manufactured holiday, but [...]