Yesterday was my 39th birthday. I kind of have a thing about birthdays. I think they should always be special and, no matter what you do, a joyous day. I think we mark time by our birthdays more than any other day, just because that means we’ve lived another year and seen another year’s worth [...]
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Okay, it’s been two months since I wrote on this blog. If I had written every time I thought about writing, I would have written 40 times. Instead I was busy, tired, overwhelmed – basically, struggling. Great things happened in the last two months, but they were often overshadowed by bitter, painful feelings. Such is [...] Anita died six months ago today. Six months. It’s weird to say it. Is it weird to hear it? How could that much time have passed? I can recall that day like it was yesterday (not that I always want to). I remember sitting at home a few days after she died and thinking to myself [...] I’ve got to stop thinking “I need to get away from it all”. That’s the thinking that leads me to follow the Devil’s temptations and distract myself from God and His purpose for me. I need to try to see God in it all. Brother Lawrence described doing everything for God “with an even, uninterrupted composure and tranquility [...] This is my first Valentine’s Day without Anita since 1993. It is very tempting to be sad, another lonely single person detesting the day of love and romance. I’ll try not to dwell too much on that instead reflecting on Valentine’s Days past.Anita and I agreed early on that this was a manufactured holiday, but [...] With Valentine’s Day coming up tomorrow, I have seen a lot of articles this week about marriage (maybe that is surprising – we might expect to see a lot of articles about love). This article in the Atlanta-Journal Constitution said we should commit to marriage itself more than the other person; this one said we need [...] Today is Penny’s 2nd birthday. I have made it through Julia’s birthday, Anita’s birthday, Ben’s birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year’s Eve and now it is Penny’s birthday. Every holiday is hard. I was sitting at my older daughter’s school program last night and thinking that two years ago at that time I was driving Anita to [...] Before I met Anita, I felt like a balloon – shiny and fun on the outside but hollow on the inside. Then I met Anita and she immediately saw inside of me and said, “No, the inside is the best bit.” And I believed her. Because she believed in me, I believed in myself. I learned [...] Have you ever heard this song by The Verve called “Bittersweet Symphony”? Most of you probably. Rolling Stone named it one of the best rock songs of all time. If not, here’s the video: Here are some of the lyrics: ‘Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony this life When I said, “My foot is slipping,” This verse was in a book about grief recovery and it got me to thinking. What if I trust in God but don’t feel secure? What if I pray and don’t [...] |
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